Today is Brizzy's first birthday. Yesterday, I went on two runs, probably from having a little bit of anxiety about it. But as I was running, I was thinking about my life exactly a year ago. It was such an exciting time, having my baby girl enter this world. And everyone has told me the last year how fast it goes. It's hard to believe because it's so cliche, but it really does.
I've never had a lot of sadness about Briz growing up. I think most of this is because she has always seemed to want to be a big girl, and the older she gets, the happier she gets, which makes my life happier. Each new stage is so much fun for me to watch and be a part of. But this last week, for whatever reason, it just hit me. And as I was packing away some of her littler clothes that no longer fit her and taking out some of the bigger clothes that I had stored, I had to fight the tears back. My little baby is becoming a little toddler. I can't even really explain why this makes me sad, because I love her age and I have so much fun with her, and I know I will continue to have so much fun. Maybe some of you more experienced mothers have an explanation.
Either way, this last year has been the best year of my life. I'm so grateful beyond words that I was blessed with my little girl. It's been wonderful reflecting on how my life has changed since a year ago today (when she nearly killed me coming out)!