Sunday, October 30, 2011

Holland's Video

I am not really able to start writing about the loss of my baby girl. I have too many thoughts constantly spinning around my head, making things seem foggy. I am tired. Sometimes it feels like I am so heavy that standing up is an extremely difficult task. But I know I will write about it, and hopefully soon. Because if nothing else, I need to for me.

In the meantime, I wanted to share this video that was made by a family friend for Holland's funeral. Friday was a wonderful day, which sounds strange to say about a day when you bury your daughter; but it was. I was with so many family and friends. I felt loved. And above all, I was able to show off my little girl; particularly to those who never had a chance to meet her. And for those that were not able to attend the funeral, I wanted to be able to share a bit of Holland with them as well. So here it is.



14 comments:

Carrie said...

What a beautiful video. I wish I was there to wrap my big arms around you! I am so sorry for your loss and the sorrow that you feel right now. I'm sending prayers & love your way! Xoxo!

Ashlee said...

Lexie- this movie is so beautiful. My kids and I have watched it over and over. We are so thankful to be able to "meet" baby Holland and get a sense of how special she is! I love you.

Ashley said...

Thank you so much for sharing those memories and moments with your beautiful daughter. Those pictures of her in the garden are stunning.

What an amazing child to touch so many in such a short time. Your family continues to be in our prayers.

Carly said...

I've watched it 3 times since I got back from Portland. I love her a lot.

Lexi Ray said...

Please know your sweet family is in my prayers. My heart aches for you and I pray that the lord may comfort you.

Much Love
Alexis Ray

Meredith said...

I really loved all those pictures. I have looked at all the ones from your old blog posts numerous times already and it was great to see more. Holland looked adorable in those pictures and especially the video clip. You guys have been in my thoughts and prayers all week. Wish I could have been there this past weekend.

Maggie said...

If i'm seeing through my massive amounts of tears correctly, I think i see the most beautiful baby girl ever. So beautifully perfect...which she always will be. I'm so glad to know you had a day filled with love and peace. I am glad, too, that you shared a part of it with those of us who ached to be with you. Love you.

Garnerfam said...

So precious! Holland and Briz are so so beautiful! Sisters forever!! We love you guys. You are continually in our thoughts and prayers. Thank you for sharing your video.

The Johnson Family said...

Every time I think you and your precious family I just start to cry. There are no words to express what you are going through, just know how much we have been thinking about you guys from so far away. We are still praying for you and from one mother to another my heart is just broken for what you have had to go through. We love you guys and I hope more than anything that our loving Father in Heaven is able to bring you peace and comfort. She is beautiful.

Sarah W. said...

Lexie, Holland is beautiful.

Emily said...

Lexie, my heart is breaking for you and your sweet little family. We are thinking about you and praying for you during this hard, hard time. Thank you for sharing Holland's sweet video. She is beautiful.

Adam and Bri said...

Perfect tribute.

Still praying for you. Still thinking about you. Still loving you.

Amander said...

Beautiful. I've watched it three times already and may just watch it again. I still think you should make an extended version.

Laura said...

Words cannot express how deeply sorry I am that you have to experience the loss of your child.

I lost my 2 month old daughter nearly 8 months ago. Just know that although the pain doesn't go away, it will become easier to bear.

My thoughts & prayers are with you!