Saturday, December 24, 2011

Yesterday

Yesterday Holland would have turned 4 months.

Yesterday marked the day that she has been dead longer than she was alive.

Yesterday, it felt like she should still be here.

Yesterday was a hard day.

Yesterday we cried.

Yesterday we remembered her beautiful little face and we remembered kissing her chubby cheeks.

Yesterday made me angry, happy, depressed, grateful, lost, found, heavy.

Today is a new day.

2 comments:

Amander said...

Thought about you and Holland all day. This post made me cry. So beautiful, Lex.

Maggie said...

As hard and unimaginable as these things are, I hope each of these difficult markers are a step closer, even little ones, to healing a bit more. Not forgetting, just healing. Merry Christmas Lexie. Loves to you and Nick and Brizzy.