An Answer

I'm sorry that my posts have been so serious lately. I feel like they have been, and sorta boring. But my life has pretty much been consisting of working like crazy (work has been really busy), itching like crazy, and well, worrying.

I finally got some answers this morning as to why my body is freaking out, and it is what I had sort of suspected: I have what is called obscetric cholestasis, where my liver does not function properly because of the hormones that come towards the end of pregnancy. The bile acids spill over into my blood, causing my skin to itch severely. The really scary part is that the bile acids also can cross the placenta and affect my baby. There is an increased risk for stillbirth and other complications to the baby.

Obviously, I'm a little scared and nervous. I am going to be going into the doctor twice a week to monitor the baby and make sure she's doing okay. And if at any point, they believe that she's not doing well, than I will have to deliver early. So really starting next week, I am not sure when I am going to have her. I am really scared about her health and just making sure she's alright. But then there comes a whole other host of problems: that I don't really have any of the baby stuff that I need, that it will affect my maternity leave and possibly insurance . . . and so I'm starting to stress a little bit.

Sorry for using this post as a place to vent, but its a scary thing to go through. My mind starts to wander, which isn't always good and I start to think of scenarios that are, well, worrisome. Funny how, now, my itching is the last concern I have.

Please keep Nick and I and our little girl in your prayers. Best case scenario, it doesn't affect her at all and I can deliver as late as possible. And somehow, the itching goes away!!! (However, I'm not really expecting that miracle any time soon).